ED Makes You Lie

When you have an eating disorder, you are not exactly truthful. I lied to people at work, family members, and friends for almost 30 years. When they asked me if I was ok, I would always say I was. I really wasn’t. I never told the important people in my life that I was struggling with food. I am not saying you have to tell the whole world that you have an eating disorder. I am also not saying that you have to tell everyone that you are close to. That is a private matter and you really need to decide who it is safe for you to tell.

I would lie to my husband about how much food I ate and how many times I would eat at a drive thru when I was working on the road. I would lie about how many meals I skipped. And do you know who told me to tell these lies? ED. He didn’t want anybody to know that he was controlling me and I didn’t want to admit I had an issue.

But do you know who I was the biggest liar to? Myself. I needed help so bad for my eating disorder and I let it go on for about 30 years. If I was honest, I could of solved this problem in high school when I started my first diet by not eating and kept it a secret. If I was honest, I would admit to myself that I was skipping several meals in a row. If I was honest, I would admit that I was binging at night when my family was asleep. But ED loves a liar because he is a liar.

So now I am telling the truth, not telling lies about how much I eat or how I feel. I have been so open about my eating disorder that I publicized it on social media and wrote a blog. I am ready to be honest and Kick ED’s Butt.🐷