ED loves Halloween🎃🎃🎃🎃

ED has always loved Halloween. Me not so much. Halloween always affected my body image and my relationship with food. I always dreaded Halloween as far as I can remember. The early years of my childhood was fine but as I got older I never felt comfortable dressing up. I always felt so stupid dressing up and felt I never looked good. I always thought people were judging how I looked. I always judged how I looked. As an adult, we would be invited to Halloween parties and we were supposed to dress up. I never did. I was so self conscience and felt that ED was constantly telling me how awful I looked.

Then there came all the food. I would struggle and overeat. Having Halloween candy in my house, to this day, is scary. I just graze and hide how much I am actually eating. Then we also loved the day after Halloween where we could go buy candy on sale. So on top of the kid’s Halloween candy, we would buy more. Ed kept on telling me once you start, you can’t stop. You failed so you might as well keep eating. So this Halloween, I am going to be patient with myself, not judge myself, and Kick ED’s Butt.🎃🐷🎃