Dreams and ED

I had a dream last night that I was in high school as an adult. I have that dream often and it usually doesn’t bother me. This time in the middle of the dream I was jolted awake and noticed I was not awake when I wanted to be due to an appointment. It really wasn’t a big deal since I was not going to be late at the time I woke up.

However, when I was taking a shower, I was thinking about the dream and high school. I was bullied a lot and there is where my eating disorder started. I was restricting and I lost weight. I remember a staff at the school telling me that she noticed I lost weight and I looked good. From then on, my goal was to be skinny. It lead to years of issues with eating. I would gain weight, lose weight, and it was such a cycle for 30 years.

It makes me sad to think about those days but I know that I am not there anymore. I have a husband, 2 kids, and a new son in law. They all make me very happy. I am determined to Kick ED’s Butt. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️